That Night

2011-10-02T19:28:00.000-07:00

She stepped back. dropped the knife.
I looked at her.
"run bitch"
she stepped back again. she turned to leave. but she turned back.
a single tear dropped from her evil face. she left.
"Haley, am I going to die?"
"No, big guy, your going to be ok!"
"Haley, I don't want to die."
"your not going to die!"
I sat their with his head in my arms. Silence. He looked at me with his big blue eyes.
Helpless. I held my hand over the slice in his little body.
the blood swam through my hands. As if my hand weren't there.
Blood trickled from James' small red lips. He looked at me.
"I'm dying"
he slowly closed his eyes. his head tilted to the side.
he was gone.

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2011-05-02T21:54:00.000-07:00

My name is Helen.
I was a happy kid. I smiled at strangers. I luaghed at funny things. I played sports and tried my best. I wantd to be succesful. I felt smart at school. I looked in a mirror and saw a happy little girl.
Things are different now. I never smile, unless its fake. funny things don't seem funny. I am not good at sports. That fast girl who scored goals. She is gone. I go to school to get through it. I struggle to pass. I'm not smart enough to be in classes I want to be in. And worst of all when I look in the mirror, tears roll down my cheeks. I see an ugly person, with no hope in life. I see a girl who must wear long sleeves, or my feelings show. I see a little girl that used to be happy, locked up in a cage. I don't think about what I want to be. The future scares me, because my future is dark.
My name is Helen and this is who I have become.

I wish I knew why

That Night

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